I don’t have cancer. I know most of you don’t give a damn about this, but it highlighted for me an under-appreciated fact - of just how limited a role intelligence plays in our life.
A week ago, I had a slightly alarming symptom I hadn’t experienced before. I thought it might be a side-effect of some eye-drops I’d been prescribed the day before, so I rang the doctor, expecting to either get the prescription changed or be told not to be such a big jessie. Instead, I was sent to hospital to test for a form of cancer, where I got the all-clear yesterday.
When the doctor told me there was a very tiny chance it could be cancer I didn’t hear the words “tiny”, or “chance” or “could”. All I heard was CANCER. Nor was I comforted by statistics on high survival rates. Instead, I went the full Jacques Brel.
A bit of me knew this was irrational. Bayes’ theorem told me there was indeed only a tiny chance of cancer. My prior probability of having cancer was slim (no other symptoms, no family history) and I had little reason to substantially update this: my one symptom was, I knew, compatible with many benign possibilities.
But what use was such reasoning?
Fuck all.
Intellect told me to heed the words of the Great Man:
Fear is in your head, only in your head
So forget your head and you'll be free
But I couldn’t. My rational mind was impotent against my primal fears. It could not tame the beast in me. My little words were lost. There’s a huge gap between having intelligence and using it sensibly. Between thought and expression lies a lifetime.
There are of course countless examples of this sort of thing. Heightened emotions - anger, joy or fear – can cause us to take more risk than we otherwise would. Sadness can cause us to make short-sighted financial decisions. And whilst my judgment was distorted by fear, others’ can be warped – especially in financial matters - by wishful thinking. In still other contexts such as investments or corporate takeovers intellect can be over-ridden by hubris (pdf) and overconfidence. In yet other cases, poverty reduces IQ by depleting cognitive bandwidth: you have to take so many decisions to get through the day that there’s little bandwidth left for thinking.
IQ alone, therefore, is feeble. It can be weakened or side-lined by passions, misjudgement or ill fortune.
To be useful It must be allied to something else. In the workplace, these somethings are soft skills. In the cases I’m considering, though, they are something else - self-control. You all know this from university: the best degrees go not necessarily to the most intelligent, but to those with the discipline to revise. When James Buchanan was asked the secret of success, he answered: "keep the ass in the chair".
The ancient Greeks called this phronesis – an ability to apply intelligence properly in the appropriate situation. Not only does this require emotional control, but it also requires an ability to adapt to different situations. Sitting here at my desk in a state of calm, I’m intelligent enough. Put me into unfamiliar surroundings where I’m emotionally aroused and I’m an idiot.
At risk of sounding solipsistic or of committing the false consensus error, I suspect I’m typical. Very few of us have phronesis. People of great ability in particular contexts often behave stupidly in others. Think of Vicky Pryce going to prison because anger overwhelmed her intellect, or Bobby Fischer, William Shockley or James Watson being ostracised because they couldn’t shut up, or the countless businessmen led by overconfidence into terrible decisions. (One of the most tragic examples here was that of Jimmy Donley, one of the greatest singer-songwriters of all time who committed suicide in poverty and obscurity).
What’s true of individuals might also be true of whole societies. A nation might be well-stocked with people of ability, but this will avail it little if those abilities are diverted into finance, rent-seeking or soulless drudgery. Nations, as well as individuals, need phronesis.
This, though, isn’t my main reason for writing all this. We hear all the time about people “battling” cancer. What we don’t hear so much are the thousands of everyday stories of tests being negative. Through the availability heuristic, this increases our fears of having cancer. I hope this story helps redress this imbalance.
Also, being confronted, even irrationally, with one’s mortality forces one to realize what’s important. Hence the links.
An anecdote, perhaps related:
I am deaf in one ear, and it came on suddenly as I approached age 50. I went to a specialist to see what was wrong (a rather prominent specialist, actually).
Part of the diagnosis was to get an MRI to make sure there wasn't a tumor, possibly a cancerous one.
I almost didn't go because, for one thing, MRIs are expensive (even though my then-decent insurance would cover it), and, for another, the chance it was a tumor was minute (rather less than one in a thousand; I checked).
Have I internalized more economics than I realize? Or was I borderline-suicidal? Not certain. I hope the former.
I did get the MRI in the end. The diagnosis? My left ear just broke. No clear pathology, also no tumor.
Posted by: Aaron Headly | October 25, 2018 at 04:31 PM
@Chris
At any event, I'm glad it all ended well in your case. It may be a terrible way to learn something, but one hopes the learning shall remain after one's memories of how it was acquired vanish.
Let's hope the American petty bourgeois liberal intelligentsia is still capable of learning.
Posted by: B.L. Zebub | October 25, 2018 at 05:30 PM
Most of your readers do care. Phew.
I wonder how successful we would be if we attempted to teach ourselves phronsis, in schools and such like. In some respects, it's remarkable how we teach e.g. history but when it comes to our mental habits, anger management etc. we just leave it to everyone to make it up as we go along.
I have always been - for no good reason, really - a sceptic of 'therapy' etc. but more recently have come to think that 'mindfulness' and cognitive behavioural therapy is useful and can make a meaningful dent in our less helpful mental habits, including our primal fears.
Maybe future generations will be superior, not because they are genetically engineered, but because everyone gets CBT at school and at work.
Posted by: Luis Enrique | October 25, 2018 at 06:17 PM
Well, me, and my doctors, decided that the collection of symptoms I had were almost certainly the result of a reaction to an infection, and would go away of their own accord with no more than a few painkillers.
Actually turns out that I have a 1-in-200,000 autoimmune illness and very nearly died, and did end up with a lot of lasting injuries.
Funnily enough, I am also often noted for being extremely calm in normally stressful situations; I may match the description of phronesis, at least in part. But it would appear that Bayes has it in for me..
Posted by: Andrew J Dodds | October 25, 2018 at 07:33 PM
Pheochromocytoma....
Look for stoic demeanor and anemotional states the barren deserts of psychopathy and antisocial personality disorder.
Medically, the same effect can be achieved with beta-blockers among the military sniper crowd. Helps the subsequent PTSD too.
"Reason is the fetish of the progressive. They have not yet learned that reason’s role is “not to make us wise, but to reveal our ignorance” (Kierkegaard). As well as the lesson of Hume, the most important of all Enlightenment thinkers: reason is, and ought to be, the slave of the passions." some author
Posted by: Rich | October 25, 2018 at 10:14 PM
Congrats on the diagnosis!
Posted by: Scratch | October 26, 2018 at 01:04 AM
I had a medical check up yesterday. The cold, emotionally non-responsive lad technicians tells me: "Well, you have a mass build up in your neck. Get it checked for Cancer"... and then she left the room..
Mathematically, numbers are in my favor. But still..
Thanks for sharing the experience. I can totally related to it now.
Also, interesting comment regarding IQ and poverty.
Posted by: Not so smart kid | October 26, 2018 at 05:43 AM
Great to hear that you're OK.
And no, giving a damn about this isn't just educational self-interest.
Posted by: Asher | October 26, 2018 at 02:25 PM
Chris, that's such good news. We all give a damn about a threat (however small) to someone choose to read regularly.
In any case, heightened emotion can also make us more aware we're really here and that reminder is useful.
Posted by: Richard Exell | October 28, 2018 at 01:19 AM